hmm...yest went hm frm sch den decide2 juz sit dwn n rez 1st la...den my 2 bros went out...i
dunno where la...den my mum was sitting in d living rm too wif me...so i tot okla...juz sit
there n watch tv wif her...coz i like 2 watch d chinese show on channel 8 wich starts @
5.30...haha...tat show was fun...so i juz sat there n watched...all of a sudden my mum told
me diz..."ina bkn nye tk lawa...ina mmg lawa...tapi psl ina ni kasar...tkde kelembutan
nye...tu psl ina tkde matair skarang...tgk mcm cia...die lawa den lembut tu psl laki suke
die"...hmmm...ok i translate in summary...my mum told me tat i m pretty but i m too
rough...hmmm...n she even compare me wif my sis...i noe la my sis is pretty n very d lady
like...but she n me is in total different character wat...she cant expect me 2 change juz
like her...true rite?haiz...den i told my mum...i wanna c hu can put up wif my true
character...i dun wanna change juz 4 d sake of tat person...well in my opinion...if u really
like tat person...u hav 2 accept wat d person is like n nt wat u wan d person 2 b like...m i
rite 2 say tat?hmmm...den she told me 2 change 4 d sake of her instead n nt 4 d sake of
guyz...i was like "huh???"...wat sia...haiz...i dunno wat ppl wan frm me...haiz...

y everytime wen it cums 2 me...ppl like 2 find all my wrong doings???wen it cums 2
her...she's always right...i dunno y d comparison is increasing...haiz...

well...dun wanna talk anymore...till here den...TTFN...

i dun luk retro @ all...my dear seniors tat went 4 d event... d nxt day had performance in sch...dunno wat safety event sia...hahaha...den our instructor was nt ard so everything we hav 2 do all by ourselves...n every1's make up is gone case 1...each of us d make up turns out 2 b funny...coz we were nt given any example of wat colour 2 use...den our hairstyle were made simple too...hahaha...well...we performed a dance which i really dun like 2 use 2 perform...coz tat dance is boring...haha...hmmm...

in d afternoon...@ 3...my cuzin came ova 2 pick me n my family up n went 2gether 2 my uncle's place 2 help out wif his wedding preparation...haha...hmm...i did nt do anything coz i was firstly tired n secondly sick...i juz sat dwn n chit chat wif my cuzin...coz too bored liao ler...itz nt tat i m lazy...itz i m too tired la...my head went all dizzy...cannot tahan @ tat time...hmmm...den helped out abit oni la...only wif d "bunga manggar"...i dunno how 2 translate tat in english...wkakaka...hmm...den my sis was like following my mum here n there la coz i din follow...haha...she has 2 luk after my mum...hahaha...den after tat i followed my cuzin 2 d nearest coffee shop 2 buy hot drinks...haha...hmmm...den went hm @ ard 10++...as i missed riding d motorcycle 4 a long distance journey...i went hm wif my bro...riding d motorcycle...

d nxt day...woke up @ 5.30am in d morning...so early sia we hav 2 get up...hmmm...den went 2 my uncle's place @ 8.30am...my cuzin picked us up again...well...had our breakfast there b4 helping out again wif d preparations...well...me n my sis has 2 b "kendarat" 4 d day...so tiring sia...wif high heels summore den hav 2 stand 4 a long time summore...haiyo...can faint...hmmm...ok d gd thing is there r many cute guyz @ d back...hehe...well...some of dem lukz like some artist...hansem sia...hehehehe...eyewash 4 me...hmm...den my father forced me 2 sing...my voice already became like rockers sia...sore throat...hmmm...so paiseh sing song wif my voice like tat...so nt nice la...hahaha...hmm...alot of ppl came...wooohooo...my aunts n uncles frm malaysia also came dwn 4 d wedding...d atmosphere was super fun la...all very supporting 1...fun...hehe...but i juz cant stop lukig @ diz particular guy @ d back...well...wat do u noe...he is my dad's fren's son...wakakakakka...he luk so cute...hehe...bleah...*stop it az*...wakakaka...hmmm...my uncle did nt wear any make-up so his face luk rather pale coz he's too nervous...hehe...his wife luks pretty...hmmm...din manage 2 take alot of pixies coz i gt too much work 2 do so din hav d time 2 take pix...hmmm...d event ended @ 5...hmmm...so helped out wif d clearing of stuff n also followed my cuzin 2 send my future sis-in-law hm...hehe...after tat went back 2 my uncle's place den had tea den went hm...u noe wat...i feel so relief sitting on d couch @ my hse...so comfortable...haha...able 2 stretch myself...hahaha...went online 4 a while...tot of going online till 12 but i wasnt able 2 hold on 2 d sleepiness so i went 2 sleep @ 10...haha...too tired liao...

me n me sis @ our uncle's wedding waiting 4 ppl 2 cum...
monday...went 2 sch...my back was freaking painful...coz too tired la...n my cough does nt wan 2 stop la...keeps on coughing n coughing n coughing...till i gt lil sleep sia...coz i cant breathe...haiz...lucky my axe oil is always under my pillow...if nt i tink i k.o...dunno y my cough hav nt bin stopping...hmmm...weird...hope it will stop soon enuf...haiz...i dunno wat is wrong wif my health these few days...

well...till here den...TTFN...

argh! i m sick...i cannot tahan liao...vomited my food back out sia yest...haiyo...den yest at 2am i cannot sleep...coz u noe y? i keep on coughing n coughing n coughing...i cannot stop at all lor...n i went out of breath yest...if i stop breathing how?haha...really panic yest sia...i cannot stop my cough n also i cannot breathe...d funny thing is tat even though hw loud my cough is my sis juz din wake up...i tink ah if theres explosion i dun tink she can wake up lor...how m i gonna perform 2day?haiz...i hope everything went fine la later...make sure tat i m nt sick anymore...

well...itz flames award 2day n every1 will b wearing retro rock...was shocked 2 c syaikhul wen he came 2 class juz now...so nt him sia...he wore retro clothes n rock hair...he really follow d exact theme sia...haha...cool...den eugene was also wearing retro...but only his shirt n specs luk retro la...d rez is nt...haha...hmmm...i tink i will luk funny later...coz i dun tink i m luking retro style...hmmm...lets juz c la...haha...gt bring my digicam along...gonna take lots of pix...haha...n i brought my bro's digicam n nt mine...coz i haven pass using mine...haha...

till here den...TTFN...





i m sooo sick 2day...i tink gonna hav fever soon...but plz nt nw...my grp needs me...my family needs me...so many things 4 me 2 do...let me finish diz up 1st den can b sick ok...haha...crap...

bin bz wif preparation 4 uncles wedding n also d performance on fri n sat...had training on tues, wed n 2day...die liao...sooo tired...tml performance haiz...den tml oso gt flames award...wawa darlz will b receivin an award...hmm...n d dress code 4 tat event will b RETRO ROCK...wat shud i wear sia...wat is RETRO ROCK???i oni noe RETRO...but RETRO ROCK???hmmm...wat eva la...gonna wear juz RETRO...wooohooo...hehehe...lolx...bin listening 2 many oldies song...haha...woohoo...i m in d 60's world...wakakaka...hmm...haiya...i full of crap liao...i tink coz i m sick tats y i m full of crap...hahahaha...

well i dun wanna crap anymore...till here den...TTFN...





ugh! i feel so irritated by sum1...she tink she can rule me izzit? so nt true...she can rule others but nt me...dun eva tink tat she can rule me la...ugh! told theres so much stuff 2 do but den still follow her other grp...so called preparing 4 sumtin wich is still far away la...ugh! i feel sooooooo irritated by her since d day we all went out together as 1 grp...really2 extremely irritated...ugh! everytime i c her ah i feel like smacking her head...argh!!! b4 my head burst i tink i betta stop talking bout her...i tink sum of u might noe hu she is but those hu dunno can ask me ah...haha...i dunno whether u agree wif me about her attitude or nt ah...haha...

1 wk n 2 days has past but i can still feel her presence in our hse...even d rez of my family members agrees wif me...we all miss her sooooo much...wen it was raining, my sis wud say pinky is wet n she is afraid of thunder...i felt like crying every time she say tat...makes me miss her sooooooo much...





hmmm...nuthin much happened...juz same old routine...go 2 sch go back den watch tv...

sat...at hm singing oni...haha...preparing 4 26th november...diez...sing n sing until my throat feel like cuming out...

yest...went 2 my uncle's hse...together wif my sis, mum n aunt...went there 2 help out wif my uncle's wedding preparation...wich will b diz sun...help out wif many things la...haha...tired sia...den after tat went 2 my cuzzie's hse 2 visit my nephew 4 d 1st time eva...haha...haven visit him since d day he waas born...haha...i m a bad aunt...haha...he is sooooooo small sia...din dare 2 carry coz he is tooooooooo small...haha...but he is cute la...den went hm after tat...

well nothing else la...TTFN...





dry run collage...deepa raya collage...birthday collage...RepFus3 raya outing collage...woodlands ssc performance collage...memory of my cat collage...
haha...there u go d collage...i was nt able 2 upload 2gether wif d post...haha....

d rez of d pix r in my mutiply...





ok i m back wif d updating of my blog...i told u diz wud b a long entry...

lets start wif on mon 6th nov...nothing much happened...only had training on tat day preparing 4 deepa raya...had no mood 2 do all my dance steps all out coz my stomach was in pain...haha...

d nxt day had my 2nd dry run...so tiring u noe...i dun hav enuf rez @ all...after a tiring day on mon, hav 2 go2 sch d nxt day n den hav dry run...can die sia if diz happens everyday...well...fatin brought her digicam on tat day so...d usual thing tat d RepFus3 galz wud do wich is cam whoring...hahaha...take pix her n there...haha...we juz luv d cameras...too stressed on tat day coz u noe y...coz i cant sing...juz recovered frm my sick den i hav 2 sing...wat sia...den furthrmore on tat day i had 2 take 2 parts...1 is adila's part n 1 is my part wich is dam high pitch la...cannot make it sia...made a fool out of myself on tat day...went totally out of pitch...haiz...den practiced n practiced but still cant get it everytime i sing wif d music...haiz...den i decided 2 exchanged parts wif Daniel...haha...so he took my part n i took his part wich is originally adila's part...haha...den after d dry run had practice wif raudah, zul, fir n dan...adila waas nt ard coz she din cum 2 sch...tiring sia...practice my pitching wich is sooooo bad...haiz...den practiced on stage wif position n so on...raudah was excited coz she learnt malay dance once again...haha...

wed...done nothing...juz sat @ hm...u noe how tired m i...lucky on tat day i was not schooling...if nt i die la sia...cannot make it...too tired...practiced my singing @ hm...den memorised my dance steps...haha...juz too nervous 4 d show d nxt day...hehehe...

9th november 2006...haha...my 2nd bro's bday...wakakakaka...lolx...yeah it was my bro's bday bday...haha...n ihad 2 make performance @ sch...haha...den woke up @ 5am n woke my bro up 2 wish him a happy bday la...hahaha...my family juz likes 2 do tat...hahaha...den went 2 take a shower n den had breakfast n went 2 sch...reached sch n quickly helped out d juniors wif their makeup n all la...proceed 2 collect d items frm ms connie's desk...@ 1st tot of wearing d 'baju' tat i brought 4 my singing item la coz i tot our dance item's 'baju' was nt nice...but i din realise wen all d accessories r put together wif d costume, it was dam nice la...so i changed my mind n wear my costume instead...wakakaka...den proceed 2 d agora 2 prepare ourselves...haha...took so many pix...haha...den practiced singing once again wif raudah, ad, zul, fir n dan...haha...using mic summore...haha...lucky my voice was nt having problems...but it still sounded funny...i hate it...nt nice @ all...d event started at 11.30...1st up was d lion dance...i dunno wat d hell is d link 4 lion dance n deeparaya sia...lion dance is 4 chinese new yr la dey...stupid...10 mins summore sia their performance...nxt was d juniors of RepFus3...haha...their item was nice...slow n steady...haha...den it was d percussion ensemble...den d indian dance...after tat was another mcg item wich is d singing...i was darn nervous wen i was standing nxt 2 d stage waiting 4 our turn...den gt diz gurl wif camera came 2 take my pix...i dunno 4 wat but she keep on zooming here n telling me 2 stand here stand there...wat sia...ppl nervous already make me more stress wif diz piture taking...haha...wen i was on stage i was really2 nervous...but luckily i din 4get my lyrics...haha...den finished my item den gt another grp singing...haha...dan, aza, zul n i dunno hu else...dunno d names la...haha...den after tat was d fashion show...wich is kind of boring la...haha...d music played was dam boring...den after tat was d indian singing...boring...haha...den after tat was d dk guyz...power...haha...they were gd la...but nt soooo gd la...haha...nt standardized...nt strong enuf in their muvments...hehe...well commented frm experience mah...haha...wen d dk guyz were up...we were like standing @ d side getting ready...n my heart goes thup thap thup thap again...nervous once again...haha...whole area was full of ppl once again la...haha...den after tat was our turn...haha...died la...haha...soooooo tired...coz d dance was soooooooo faz...but long...hahaha...my legs r in pain sia dancing on d floor n nt on stage coz u noe y...d stage was dam small la...sooooooo many ppl was looking...haiyo...haha...den after tat took a MCG pix together...n i din realise tat MCG is such a big grp...hehe...den after tat went 2 eat coz theres was a buffet prepared 4 all d performers...hehe...so eat n eat n eat...n take pix n take n take...haha...den stayed in sch 4 a while coz dun wanna go hm tat early den went 2 causeway pt 2 buy our instructor's bday prezzie...after tat went hm...

d nxt day...MY BIRTHDAY...10TH NOVEMBER 2006...hehehe...well...my cuzzies was d 1st ppl 2 wish me...but den Suria was d 1st fren coz he wished me a day b4...wakaka...advance 1...hehehe...den as my family's usual routine...they woke me up @ 5pm juz like my bro juz 2 wish me a happy bday la...den woke up n gt ready 4 sch...so suay...gt ut on tat day...haiz...so went 2 sch...den in class...Eugene juz hav 2 blurt out tat it was my bday on tat day 2 d whole class...hmph...haha...den after tat shockingly saw su darlz outside my class...haha...den saw ad n fad darlz outside too...haha...den they came in n wished me a happy bday n also gav me a present...soooo swit...n i realise tat my dance members juz luv 2 buy bodyshop gifts...haha...den sat 4 my ut...haiz...so stress sia wif d paper...hmm...den went back hm wib fad n ad la...but i din realise tat they gt a surprise 4 me...tat bought a small brownie n placed 1 candle on d brownie...hehe...bday cake of mine...so swit of dem...hehe...den proceed back hm...so i din saw anything on d table or anywhere in my room...but den i realised tat my bed was i a huge mess la...den cleaned up my bed n saw a prezzie on my bed...hehehe...it was frm my bro n his fiancee...hehe...so bad of him 2 make a mess out of my bed...n i was triple happy wen i opened d prezzie...guess wat...he gav me a digicam...wooooohooooo...yay me...sooooooo happy on tat day 2 receive such sweet prezzie...n also tat day was also my nephew's bday...my very 1st nephew on my dad's side...i m an auntie again...haha...n i hafta celebrate wif him on d same day...haiz...y does he hafta b borned on my bday...haha...now i hafta share bday wif him...hmph...but nvm tink of d positive side tat no1 will 4get my bday haha...=P...i was soo happy 2 receive swit surprises frm my darlz n oso my bro...haha...

11th november 2006...went raya outing wif my dearest dance members...hehe...had soooooo much fun wif dem...met d ppl living in d west n in woodlands @ woodlands...fad was d 1st 1 2 arrive...haha...i was 2nd...wawa was 3rd...lala was 4th n sarlina was laz as usual...ahaha...den went 2 tampines...1st stop was our instructor's hse...haha...ate so much food @ his hse...confirm put on weight sia going frm hse 2 hse n eat...haha...d bus tat we rented came 2 pick us up frm there...den proceed 2 fareed's hse...wich is @ bedok...frm tamp was supposed 2 go 2 another tampines hse but den fareed's parent wanna go out so we hafta go there 1st...den frm his hse we went 2 husniyah's hse...wich is back 2 tampines...den proceed 2 sengkang...wich is ad's hse...den went 2 cikgu aliza's hse...wich is d most fun part of all...coz u noe y...we found out her secret...wich she has bin keeping frm us n we hav bin suspecting about it...hehe...we r juz very clever in getting secrets out of ppl...haha...den we proceed 2 yishun...wich is 2 kakak's hse...haha...den went 2 teck whye wich is fad's n sarlna's hse...hmmm...den after tat 2 d laz area...wich is woodlands...haha...frm lala's hse 2 jannah's 2 wawa den dwn 2 me...haha...mine is d very laz hse la...hehe...hmmm...all d way in d bus frm 1 destination 2 another we all sang songs in d bus...haha...den fareed came up wif a game 4 us 2 play @ moz of d hse...he followed d zoom thailand show...haha...so much crazy ideas...haha...den also we played continue d words of d songs game...haha...only me, ad, fad n fareed was active playing diz game coz d rez dun wanna play... d rez was only looking n listening...haha...den wawa n bedah n sarlina joined in...haha...coz they were bored too...haha...took many pix 4 diz outing too...haha...

12th november 2006...d sadest day of my life...but lets bt go 2 d sad part yet...woke up @ 4am...2 get ready 2 go 2 sch...was suppose 2 hav a training @ 5.45am in sch coz we hav 2 put in our makeup @ 7...den there was no training @ all coz every1 came very late...haha...wen i was putting on my accessories my instructor keeps on disturbing me sia...wich makes me super stress on tat day...den went 2 d toilet 2 sit there n do my laz minute editing of myself...wakaka...editing sia...haha...coz too stressed sitting in d rm la wif my instructor talking much...den proceed 2 d place...n u noe wat...d place is soooooo terribly bad...o juz hate it la...d stage was dam small...d place does nt luk like a gd place coz itz juz under d hdb blk sia...it is sooo tat bad la...ugh...i wonder y r we always invited 2 diz kind of event n nt d grand2 event...hmph...den celebrated wawa's bday on tat day...lala's bf brought d bday cake tat we ordered...den had d food given 2 us la...buffet style...so ate so much...haha...took pix as per normal...haha...went hm feeling really tired la...cannot thn la...fell asleep on d chair...haha...now d sad part...my family n i was watching tv la @ ard 6pm...we were too engrossed wif d tv la...hmmm...den my bro went 2 d toilet n as usual like he always do...he will always call my pet n go in d toilet...wen he went out of d toilet he tried 2 call my pet cat again la...den he realise tat she does nt respond 2 him...her body was nt muving n her ears r nt twitching @ all...my bro tried 2 poke her n realised tat sumthing is wrong...so my bro asked my dad if is it true tat she is gone...den i was like...dun utter rubbish la...den my mum went 2 d kitchen 2 try n check it out la...den my bro pulled d towel tat she was lying dwn on here n there n there was no response frm her...my mum den said it was true tat she's gone la...den again i say dun utter rubbish...den my dad went in n check...den he too said d same thing...i was speechless la wen i saw my dad holding her...her body was soooooo stiff...nt muving @ all...my dad told me tat her stomach is very flat already...n she is nt breathing animore...i was really super speechless @ tat time...i sat dwn @ d couch wif my sis @ d opposite couch n nt talking @ all...while my dad, bro n mum manage her...it was exactly dusk wen we realise it...wen i was sitting @ d couch my tears starts 2 roll dwn my cheeks la...i tot i m strong enuf but den i m nt...i was too sad liao...i juz cant believe tat my beloved cat is gone...i juz cant stop crying...my dad n bro brought her body 2 my late grandma's grave n buried it nxt 2 her grave...my mum, my sis n me juz cant stop d tears frm rolling dwn our cheeks la...we were very extremely sad over it...den my mum's cousins came over la...it was exactly 2 d wrong time 4 dem 2 cum ova 4 hari raya visit...hmmm...well wat 2 do...we juz hav serve dem wif our red swollen eye due 2 all d crying...well...i tink i dun wanna talk anymore or i will cry again n my eyes wil b swollen again...

13th nov...i hav no mood @ all in class after wat had happened d day b4...i wasnt myself @ all...my clothes were nt as wat i used 2 wear...as in i m very sloppy...i wore my nerdy sec sch glasses n oso my hair were nt tidy @ all...my frenz keep telling me tat i wasnt myself tat day...hmmm...ya i noe i wasnt myself...coz my mood is really super low...haiz...
2day...my mood was up bit la...manage 2 make sure tat my clothes r nt sloppy...my hair is neat etc...den after sch went 2 gelare wif zoh...a bday treat frm zoh...hahaha...wooohooo...ice cream...bt my throat is in pain...super pain...but heck care...i gt 2 eat ice cream...yum yum...hehe...i haven upload d pix tat i took so i wun post it here but will post it @ my multiply page...so do luk @ it there...hehe...

ok la...till here den...TTFN...

~May my cat's soul rest in peace~





will update soon...it will b a super duper long 1...hehehe...

at my hse...

at zohra's hse...

~HeavenlyDemonic~